Saturday, February 28, 2009

Circle time

We are sitting in a little group, being read to by Crazy Redhead Mathematically-Inclined Friend.

On Internet-Savvy Friend's suggestion, she has begun to read the Internet's most infamous fanfiction. With enthusiasm and voice effects. We have made it as far as chapter 21 for now, and will keep reading far into the night.

It is an amalgam of enough terrible spelling to send shivers down your spine, angsty goth teenagers, lengthly descriptions of clothes (black and gothic) and makeup (black and gothic), frenzied lovemaking, confusion of words, profanity, and Mary Sues galore.

Among some of the choicier quotes:
I lost my virillity (sic.) to him - Oh, my lover took my manhood, yes...
If you're a homophone, fuck off! - My, what violence! What discrimination! Isn't it ironic that the author routinely confuses those selfsame homophones?
Stop it now, you horny simpletons! - I don't even have anything to say to this.

ADDENDUM:
The only way to kill a vampire is with a steak - Restaurants do warn us that undercooked meat is dangerous, but I never knew it was that serious!

Strike two

I thought (once again) that the weather had reached a stable point. All throughout this week, temperatures have been high enough to rival a European summer.

I thought that maybe it would stay that way, like it naturally does here in the spring.

And, once again, I was wrong. Wrong, wrong, wrong.

There was enough wind to blow over a horse.

Temperatures were low enough to freeze an elephant.

I need to stop deluding myself about the seasons and just accept them as they come (and go and come and go and come and go.)

Friday, February 27, 2009

Tea-time

My Statistics professor holds a Tea-time on Friday afternoons every three weeks.

We gathered in a little classroom on the seventh (but really the third) floor of the physics building. Seven students, the professor, and one of the TAs.

At first, the atmosphere was a bit tense. None of the students really knew what to expect, until the British professor decided that the water was hot enough to make tea, at which point the Chinese TA explained that the ideal water temperature for black tea was 94°C, and 76°C for green tea. A discussion on the proper brewing of tea by type ensued, with the bewildered students looking on.

I've drunk tea before. That is, I have put a mug of water in the microwave for one minute and thrown in a bag of Earl Grey maybe a grand total of five times in my life. Judging from their dumbfounded expressions, so had the other students.

Eventually, through the natural flow of conversation, we decided to introduce everyone, as not all of the students were in the same sections and the professor didn't know five of the seven of us present personally (both sections combined total over a hundred students). As the second person introduced himself, a stranger burst in.

"Oh, I'm sorry, this is the wrong room. Is this a class? You look pretty cozy. Hey! Cookies! Can I have a cookie?"

Somehow, he ended up staying in the room for ten more minutes, talking the entire time about anime, Japanese, religion, films, casts (his arm was in one), candy, his father, and his roommate, who was out of town for the weekend, so it was OK for his dad to stay in his room. He asked to film us for a project he was presenting at some film festival somewhere, he would ask us about our religious views and have us prove them on camera. Except that he did not have any batteries. So he promised to return later if he found batteries. But before leaving, he wrote his YouTube address (It's Japanese, it's from this manga series I read, did you know I went to an anime convention? I went to the Chinese Lantern Festival a couple nights back, that's where they wrote in Kanji on my cast, it means God, rainbow, cloud. The Japanese have three alphabets, you know? Kanji is for symbols, Katakana is a syllabary, and Romanji is for foreign words [actually, there's four alphabets if you count Romanji, because it is the Latin alphabet, NDLR] [also, that last part was entirely quoting him.]) on the board so we could look at his movies and give them favorable ratings, and did you know it was really easy to create an account?

And then he left.

No one in the room had any idea who he was.

Ten minutes later, after the shock had worn off, the TA threw a problem at us, which was argued about and demonstrated on the chalkboard for the next fifteen minutes.

And then I had to leave, so I don't know what happened next.

But I'm still slightly in shock at some random stranger bursting in on an obviously private social event, monologuing for an extended amount of time, and requesting to film us justifying religious views. Although we didn't have a choice, really. He just pulled out his camera.

And now I realize he didn't even say his name.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

All systems go

The past two days have been surreal.

Last night, I saw Apollo 13 once again. Tonight, I attended Gene Kranz's talk. I talked to him.

Memories are flooding back to me.

The Moon globe in my grandfather's workshop. The first science book in my bookshelf. My Space Science class. Field trips. The Saturn V rocket at the Johnson Space Center. The mission simulation. Camping at McDonald Observatory. The Columbia disaster. The reporters in our classroom.

Space fascinates me. Space fascinates mankind.

The almost boundless and virtually unexplored void beyond our little planet draws us like moths. It has been this way since man appeared, and I assume will remain so for the remainder of our stay on Earth.

I can't fully explain what I feel when I look around the Mission Control room.

I can't fully explain what I feel when I see the surface of the Moon.

I can't fully explain what I feel when I recount the great stories of the age of space exploration.

But there's a longing. And some exhilaration. I know it's my world, but that I won't ever be part of it.

I wanted to be an astronaut until a well-intended cousin told me that my less-than-perfect vision was an obstacle I couldn't overcome.

Since then, I've taken other paths. I'll never be the first woman on the Moon, the first human on Mars, I'll never grow plants in zero-g.

But I'm still part of that world, through such wonders as NASA streaming on the web, movies like Apollo 13, and opportunities like tonight.

And I love what I do.

Most of all, The Boy also shares this passion. We studied together to memorize the craters of the Moon, we presented insulation foam and freeze-dried food to student fairs, we discussed Gene Kranz's signature vest, we worked our way through checklists and problems to take a simulated flight mission to successful completion.

Some days, I really think I'm on top of the world.

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

Warming up nerd engine

Tonight is the showing of "Apollo 13," tomorrow night is the Gene Kranz talk.

I am so excited I could do a triple backflip.

(Except I can't.)

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Jurassic City

I walk along the dusty street, surrounded by slowly-moving giants. The noise is deafening.

I have half an hour of time before my next class. Fascinated, I approach the metal fence and stare.

Behind the fence lies a gaping wound in the ground. You can clearly see that the City was built on chalk. The earth is white, the dust is white, the air is white. Not like the City Back Home, where the clay bleeds orange tones in the street.

My shoes slowly sink in the white half-dried mud. I do not notice.

In front of me, the creature slowly and gracefully unfolds its neck, then bows, as if after a performance, to finish on the ground. It whips it head, and straightens again. A shower of chalk plates tinkle to the ground. The creature repeats this gesture for many minutes more. Then, as if bored, it turns around shakily and begins sweeping its long neck from side to side, scraping the sides of the pit with its raised head. It looks like a diplodocus.

The bulldozer operator looks up and notices me. He waves, then goes back to work.

In the background, several smaller engines move around in a slow ballet, like a herd of iguanodons.

Time runs out, I go to class.

When I walk out, night has fallen. In the distance, I see the towering shapes of two cranes, like tall brachiosaurs, or better yet, the mysterious Amphicoelius fragillimus. They loom above the City.

In the streets, the last University carts zip around like small othnielia hurrying to finish their day's business.

It is late, I walk home.
The dinosaurs disappear, replaced by construction sites.

But is it over?

Under the Pigeon Tree, the flock of dinosaur descendants settle in for the night.

And in the Turtle Pond, the real reptiles blow bubbles and sink sleepily to the bottom.

You never forget your dreams.

Monday, February 23, 2009

To the inconsiderate idiot

who left her four loads of laundry in the washing machines twenty minutes after they were done:

Your purple thong fell behind behind washer #3. You're welcome.

And no, I'm not sorry.

You should keep track of how long your laundry is set for, there's four machines on this floor and a hundred people who need to use them. Maybe next time you'll learn.

The Fleming Chickens

Oh, Sir Fleming, you most disorganized of scientists.

You took a holiday without cleaning up, for lack of a better word, the miscellaneous crap in your lab. I frown upon you, yes sir, for that is unacceptable lab etiquette.

You came back to find your cultures devastated by killer fungi. What did you expect, the plates weren't sterile!

And then won the Nobel Prize because that mushroom turned out to be penicillin.

Lucky you.

If I left the lab for two weeks, here's what I'd find:


Fig. 1 : Gallus gallus in a Petri dish

Just another benefit of working with chicken cells, I suppose... Maybe I'll win the Nobel Prize someday for solving the world's hunger problems through sloppiness?

Nah. The cells won't make a chicken. Just a lot of chicken blood cells. Boring, really. But it's funnier to imagine that way.

Especially after The Boss told us to not use other people's tubes for fear of disastrous consequences (I think he meant the experiment not working, but picturing the lab overrun with spontaneously-generated chickens was a whole lot more interesting.)

Sunday, February 22, 2009

Statistically speaking...

The biostatistics homework is designed to take three hours to complete. Which it did. Which took a while. Three hours, to be exact.

On the other hand, it was worthwhile. I can now calculate confidence intervals, sigma Y bar, and standardization factors with my eyes closed.

Oh, Science... You are indeed my statistically significant other. We spend so much time together...

Maybe we spent too much time together...

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Movie Nights

The Film Committee's theme this week was Musicals. Tuesday was Aladdin sing-along, Wednesday Singing in the Rain, and Thursday High School Musical 3. I went to all of them because, hey, free movies!

The Aladdin sing-along was truly an experience that changed my life. I'd never been to a sing-along before, and seeing an entire theater-ful of people bursting into song/spontaneously splitting into male/female parts during a most awesome rendering of "A Whole New World" was beyond words. None of my friends came along, as they were too busy doing whatever it is my friends do when they don't want to come along. They regret it now, and I had fun without them singing at the top of my voice and linking arms with total strangers in a dark theater. On the way home, I hummed the songs over and over again. Those were the good old days, when animated movies were 2-D and had good music and songs. Nowadays, it's all plot, plot, plot.

I know it's a classic, but Wednesday was the first time I saw Singing in the Rain. And I loved it. Tap dance? Singing? Flashing lights? Props? No special effects? Choreographies? Gene Kelly? Count me in. Those were the good old days, when movies had real actors who were talented, no special effects or computer animations... Needless to say, I swung around every streetlamp between the theater and my dorm.

Now, High School Musical 3... The movie is worth seeing just for the heckling value. Unrealistic characters, unrealistic setting, unrealistic plot... And incredibly shallow. But hey, that's apparently the life us American teenagers are supposed to be leading. Moreover, the audience was composed of 300 college girls and maybe ten guys, either unfortunate boyfriends or very flamboyantly gay. The funniest aspect of the movie was the ear-splitting squealing and cheering every time any one of the male characters took his shirt off or kissed his girlfriend. And the singing, DEAR GOD, THE SINGING. They were singing along, despite the fact that they very obviously were not thirteen-year-old girls. We tried to organize a choreography on the way home, but failed due to the fact that in real life, people don't actually burst into song and dance. Although it would make life very much more interesting. Those were the good old days, when Disney actually made good movies, like Alice in Wonderland, The Sword in the Stone, The Jungle Book... (Not Snow White, though. I hated Snow White. And Sleeping Beauty.) (Also, out of all the princes, I personally think the Beast is the best-looking one. Also, he has an actual personality and redeeming qualities/character struggles instead of being a boring dude on a white horse who shows up in time for rescues/kissing the dead girl.)

While we're on the topic of movies, I saw the last fourth of Gone With the Wind today, and had to look up the plot on Wikipedia because I was extremely confused.

I also saw my first episode of Star Trek last week, and might have to watch the entire series because it is that fascinating. Mostly for the bad acting, I admit it. The science is quite interesting, though.

Next week, Film Committee is showing Apollo 13, which I will most definitely attend because I haven't seen it since my Space Science class in the seventh grade and also Gene Kranz is giving a lecture the day after. Gene Kranz! THE Gene Kranz! I am getting in that auditorium if I have to sell my liver and both kidneys. Fortunately, tickets are free for students! I love the University. Very, very much. What they can't guarantee is that I will actually have a spot, even though I have a pass, so I will get in line several hours before, just in case.

I can sense a very large nerd-fest coming on...

Friday, February 20, 2009

A eulogy

You were a good fish, Michael Phelps. You swam around and around in your bowl, wildly splaying your fins at anyone who came too close, burying your head in the pebbles at the bottom when you were bored, pretending to be a shark when you were hungry.

You were a good fish, Michael Phelps. You kept us company. You were always there, blowing bubbles, when we needed a friendly fin to lean on. You were always there to act surprised when we made a sudden move. You were always there to entertain us with your twitchy antics.

You were a good fish, Michael Phelps. Ernest the Ravenous Nymphomaniac Betta Fish, although you never knew him, was destined to be your friend. Only your dazzling red could rival his enchanting blue, and your gentleness offset his aggressive antics. Mild-mannered Galileo, although weak and sickly, would have been the perfect third Fishketeer. Although I hope that Ernest and Galileo go on to lead long and blissful lives, I hope that you may all meet in the Great Fishbowl in the sky someday and together go on the adventures you didn't have time to lead during your short time on this Earth.

You were a good fish, Michael Phelps. May you rest in peace.

You were a good fish, Michael Phelps. We will miss you.

Michael Phelps the Betta Fish, not Michael Phelps the human. He didn't die, he just went back to SeaWorld.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Fe 3+ tales (Ha, ha, ferric tales, get it?)

In honor of the Ochem midterm I am about to take, I will make a chemistry joke. That no one will probably understand, but whatever.

Little Red Riding Hood: Look at me! I'm a ketone!
NH2-NH2: I am the Big Bad Wolff(-Kishner Reduction). I eat you now. Om nom nom!
Little Red Riding Hood: Oh no, I have have been reduced! My oxygen is gone! I am dead.

Aside from being utterly silly, this is a very good mnemonic for the Wolff-Kishner Reduction.

Anyways, I now walk to my uncertain organometallic doom (except that I am prepared, HAH! Got you there. You're not going to catch me again, Ochem!)

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

Reptilian escapades


I spoke too soon. I should have remembered that Texas weather is as fickle as a bored Shakespearean mistress.

Today was a radiant day. Sunshine, warmth, and just breezy enough to keep you from roasting. Because of the recent rain, the Turtle Pond is almost overflowing and most of the rocks the turtles usually sit on are submerged. Perhaps warm concrete is irresistibly appealing, perhaps they were tired of overcrowding, perhaps they decided it was time to see the world. Whatever the reason, the turtles have decided to run amok today.

Some clambered on the side of Pond Number One, some took a stroll on the sidewalk, some went up to Pond Number Two, some sunbathed next to the trees, and a few even managed, like a trio of breeding salmon, to travel all the way to Pond Number Three!



Next to the turtles, students are sprawled on the grass, sunbathing. Bees buzz, the tower chimes, bicycles wheel by.

I wonder what tomorrow will bring.

Tuesday, February 17, 2009

Crowd psychology

We actually had a productive discussion in German Theater today. Everyone participated, everyone used their best pronunciation.

Possibly because we were trying to impress the two high-schoolers who came in to perform a scene from Schiller's Maria.

Maybe we should have guests more often?

In other news, the weather was foggy and misty and spluttery and overall disgusting today. I had to skip lunch and run back home to change my shoes because they were soaked through. I had mud on my pants and wet legs up to the knee, and I loved every minute of it. Winter! Finally! We should have more of these kinds of days.

I do make a lot of demands, don't I?

Monday, February 16, 2009

Homework Assignments Anonymous

We had the first Genetics midterm today.

And because I kept on putting off doing homework, I was up half the night writing up a chemistry lab instead of reading the book or getting much-needed sleep.

If I didn't stand by the principle that if you don't know it by the time you walk out of the classroom, you're not doing it right, I would have been in trouble. Fortunately, I did know what I was doing and managed to answer every question.

But what if it had been a subject I didn't know inside and out?

I have made a decision with Tiny Russian Friend. Like Alcoholics Anonymous or one of those bad diet programs, we have pledged to support each other and keep each other motivated.

From now on, we get to reprimand each other severely if we haven't started on assigned reading, projects, and optional problems by 5 pm the day they are assigned.

We will not get behind. We will be ready. And we will triumph.

Lesson learned, I suppose.

Sunday, February 15, 2009

Not a good sign

It feels like the night after a long vacation, right before school starts again.

I still have so much homework to do...

Saturday, February 14, 2009

Love Letters

Underneath all the socks in my sock drawers, I hide all of the letters The Boy has written me in the past three years. One-half of a peculiar conversation. It's a rather irregular correspondence, ranging in frequency from a day to a month and a half between letters.

More than anything else, I think, those letters define who I am.

For the almost seven years we've known each other, The Boy has been my best friend. And, for six of those years, we've written to each other regularly.

My love of writing comes in part from these letters. The Boy has such an unusual, distinct style that writing to him, or even just reading his letters takes considerable thought and a great deal of culture. His fondness for rare words and old school references has introduced me to a whole new world of thinking and writing.

There are pages and pages of letters. Some are sad, some are happy, some are funny, some just factual. All of them are written with tenderness.

The Boy and I have helped each other through hard times. Family, school, depression, parents, siblings. He's a source of good advice, and even when he has none, he always has a kind word to offer.

Through those years and those letters, we've grown together. We know each other well enough to have a large insight into the other's thoughts. We are very different people, yet very similar in many ways. Together, we work perfectly.

Because of the distance, we don't spend much time together. But it works for us. Maybe our letters aren't the stuff of the great novels (you know, the ones with grassy hills, chalky cliffs, family mansions, tearful farewells on a windy day and whatnot), but they serve their purpose well. We are like Cyrano and Roxanne, except Roxanne isn't quite that shallow. And that pesky Christian guy doesn't get in the way.

I couldn't think of a more perfect person to be in love with than The Boy.

Friday, February 13, 2009

Ramblings

My blogging inspiration is overwhelmed.

There are so many things I want to talk about, but the words keep on jumbling themselves up in my head and so rudely pushing each other out of the way that I can't stop and think for a second about what I want to write.

Ah! It's coming back to me. Somewhat.

First of all, the video posted by Scriptor Senex yesterday reminded me of a video I found on another blog some time ago. It may have been tangobaby's, but I can't seem to find it anywhere, either there or on YouTube. It was a beautiful video of people across the world singing the same song together. The first person sang, the second person played an instrument while listening to the recording of the first person, the third person added drums while listening to the recording of the first two, and so on until a fantastic symphony had been assembled across the planet. I may be pessimistic sometimes about the fate of humankind, but this was a beautiful moment of peace and togetherness. Music is a universal language.

Second in an ever-lengthening list is a mixed tape (or CD, rather) Crazy Redhead Mathematically-Inclined Friend made for me (and all of us in our little group) as a Valentine's gift. She has excellent taste (there are maybe two songs I don't really like). I now have a collection of love songs from a wide range of places, times, and styles. Among them, The Origin of Love from the movie Hedwig and the Angry Inch is a surprisingly beautiful and moving song about, well, the origin of love, based on Plato's Symposium.
On a less serious note, but still on the same topic, you may be familiar with Rickrolling. The version my friend thoughtfully and lovingly provided is somewhat different--and to a certain degree with this particular politician, adorable (click through that slide show without being overcome by the cuteness of it all, I dare you).

More lovey-doveyness, I suppose (and it's not even tomorrow yet): I went to the post office this morning to mail a Valentine's gift and letter to The Boy (dating an engineer has perks, any type of building material [duct tape, ahem, or plywood, or sheet metal, except those don't mail as easily], is always a good idea). Anyway, point of the story is, the post office didn't open until 9 (my Friday classes start at ten), so I wandered around the Capitol for an hour, watching congressmen park their cars and walk to work and discuss various atrocities they intend to force upon public schools. I sat down on the grass next to an old (for here) Swedish-style church reconverted into a library. It was closed, to my great dismay, but the outside was still quite pretty and peaceful in the early morning coolness.

Last, and very sadly not least:
This afternoon, I traveled home with Bookish Friend and Friend With Many Pairs of Sunglasses.

When I arrived, Sis broke the news: one of my good friend's little brother passed away yesterday. City Back Home is a small town, where everyone knows everyone, or at least knows someone who knows someone else. There are a few tragic events in the community every year, but this is the first time someone I know well is affected in such a way.

I can't know, and I hope I won't ever know what his family is feeling right now.

Standard condolences and formulae of politeness cannot replace what is gone.

I have no words to offer but these: rest in peace, little brother I knew from afar. Your life wasn't easy, but I hope you are happier wherever you are now.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

Blast from the past

With luck, some planning, a strange turn of circumstances, a wing and a prayer, I ended up visiting the teachers at my old elementary school.

I bought bright yellow flowers, bravely walked up the steps, and was instantly greeted by a massive hug from my teacher, who had seen me through the window and instantly recognized me--after seven years!

The last time I saw her, she was pregnant and I had just attended her wedding. Now, she has a five-year-old son in kindergarten.

The sixth grade classrooms were moved from the second floor of the school out to the wooden annex nicknamed "The White House."

I can't describe how wonderful it was to see her again.

She promised to invite me to dinner sometimes. I am quite excited. And happy.

Wednesday, February 11, 2009

Family time

It's time I went home.

Father is in France for two weeks at a conference. Sis just overcame a bout of the flu, which Mother and Bro now have. Before being sick, Mother went (in the direct words of my dearest Sis, who may grow up to be a stand-up comedian if her brains and musical genius don't take her anywhere, which is unlikely because that kid has talent) on her classic "Yeah i take care of y'all, and i need to take care of myself more, and i wish i could go back 50 years, and start my life over and (add glare here) I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING TODAY THAT I WANTED TO DO (really glare at person as if it was their fault). AND STOP DOING YOUR HOMEWORK YOUNG LADY, AND STOP MULTI-TASKING. AND GO SET THE TABLE AND DO EVERYTHING THAT I DIDN'T DO WHILE YOU'RE AT IT. Oh, also stay here and listen to me whine about my miserable life, and how i think that people hate me because i'm different, and let's turn everything anybody talks about that was meant in a joking manner into a 50 hour speech about how it was an example of miscommunication and how it is really sad, and how it shouldn't be funny, and how France is so much better than the rest STOP ROLLING YOUR EYES AND SIGHING AND LISTENING TO ME. Oh i'm so sorry, i didn't mean to tell it to you, it's not your problem that my life sucks and that i need to take care of y'all, and i need to take care of myself more, and i wish i could go back 50 years, and start my life over and (add glare here) I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING TODAY THAT I WANTED TO DO (really glare at person as if it was their fault). AND STOP DOING YOUR HOMEWORK YOUNG LADY, AND STOP MULTI-TASKING. AND GO SET THE TABLE AND DO EVERYTHING THAT I DIDN'T DO WHILE YOU'RE AT IT. Oh, also stay here and listen to me whine about my miserable life, and how i think that people hate me because i'm different, and let's turn everything anybody talks about that was meant in a joking manner into a 50 hour speech about how it was an example of miscommunication and how it is really sad, and how it shouldn't be funny, and how France is so much better than the rest STOP ROLLING YOUR EYES AND SIGHING AND LISTENING TO ME. Oh i'm so sorry, i didn't mean to tell it to you, it's not your problem that my life sucks and that i need to take care of y'all, and i need to take care of myself more, and i wish i could go back 50 years, and start my life over and (add glare here) I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING TODAY THAT I WANTED TO DO (really glare at person as if it was their fault). AND STOP DOING YOUR HOMEWORK YOUNG LADY, AND STOP MULTI-TASKING. AND GO SET THE TABLE AND DO EVERYTHING THAT I DIDN'T DO WHILE YOU'RE AT IT. Oh, also stay here and listen to me whine about my miserable life, and how i think that people hate me because i'm different, and let's turn everything anybody talks about that was meant in a joking manner into a 50 hour speech about how it was an example of miscommunication and how it is really sad, and how it shouldn't be funny, and how France is so much better than the rest STOP ROLLING YOUR EYES AND SIGHING AND LISTENING TO ME. Oh i'm so sorry, i didn't mean to tell it to you, it's not your problem that my life sucks and that everybody hates me..." (continues into indistinct mumbling and whining...) speech. Except in French and grammatically correct. (If you must know, this is pretty much word for word what Mother dearest says. Over and over again. Every other day.)

So, I'm going to go home this weekend, play doctor a bit, cook up some yummy food they won't eat anyway (I remember having the flu when I was eight or so, I wouldn't even eat the seven different kinds of pasta Mother had arranged into a flower on my plate, or even chestnut spread with sour cream... That's saying something!), talk to Sis and cheer her up a bit, and possibly maybe study a bit for my Genetics test on Monday.

Tuesday, February 10, 2009

You know what bugs me?

The fact that we have two working showers for 20 girls. Oh, yes, they planned the bathroom well, with five showers. The thing is, only two of them work.

That means that in the morning you have to either wake up really early or race the others to the showers that work. Or check back every five minutes to see if someone left.

I've filed at least five different maintenance requests for the showers, but apparently they seem to think that they work just fine, thank you. Which they don't. The remaining showers are already bad enough, what with the lousy water pressure and the cold water anytime someone so much as opens a hot water faucet anywhere on the floor, but the other three haven't spurted anything more than a few dribbles since, oh, last May maybe?

In the words of my wise Friend Who Likes Science Fiction: asdfghjklkjhgfdsasdfghjkl. And blerg.

Monday, February 9, 2009

Well, whaddya know!

It actually rained today!

We are a foot behind normal precipitation, the most severe drought in seventy years. But there's hope!

Maybe we might get a bit of rainy season? I hope so. I love Texas when it rains.

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Priorities

For once, I got my homework done early. Then I played hog-the-laundry-room and did a giant load of laundry (or three). Then I had time to make a thank-you card for a professor who is writing me recommendation letters for summer programs. And then I cleaned my desk.

I didn't get much reading done, but at least it wasn't a wasted day. I'm quite proud.

(That desk had newspapers from last October, for goodness' sake! I haven't seen the surface of the thing for at least three months!)

(Also, I have been discovering/rediscovering French pop music. My, my, we have talented voices. And good lyrics. Olivia Ruiz has a very French style. I guess her songs only make sense if you understand French, but if you do they are very beautiful.)
(I was shocked to find that she sang a classic George Brassens, I found it even better than the original. She sings it with such emotion and style. Just listening to the way she sings makes you blush [as should any respectable George Brassens song, of course] ['respectable' being a manner of speaking]. Oh, how I love the classics!)

Saturday, February 7, 2009

Pongal

Today was the celebration of Pongal, hosted by the Indian student association. On the plaza, they had set up tables with quantities of paper kites and food and loud Indian music.

One of the disadvantages to paper kites is that they tend to break easily. Fortunately, they also had a roll of duct tape to fix the kites, but they ran out quite fast. By the end of the day, my kite was torn to bits. In addition, only a few people succeeded in actually flying their kites (a couple of them went all the way to the top of the tower and even beyond the main building), but it was fun nonetheless. I ran around in circles to try to get mine in the air, but it kept crashing to the ground.


I liked the juxtaposition of the kite and the phrase.

Friday, February 6, 2009

The house of the sun

Iruskia.

Flaking white letters in a long ago child's clumsy handwriting. The high wooden gate creaks a welcome as the tribe of small children runs through, dripping sand and salt and pine needles.

Inside the courtyard, the mimosa forest and thousands of hydrangeas wave invitingly in the warm wind. The sandy black soil is decorated with a mosaic of footprints.

After dropping their loads of buckets, nets, and parasols by the back door, the children hurry to the kitchen. A woman, both wife, sister, mother, grandmother, and great-aunt to many in the house, distributes slices of white bread on the red-and-white checkered oilcloth and take the powdered cocoa from the top shelf. The children scoop the chocolate on the bread, and begin eating. As always, someone begins to laugh and soon brown powder flies everywhere.

When they are done, the children move to the great hall, where old wooden thrones, worn from generations of children pretending to be Kings and Queens and Princesses and Viziers, have worn smooth the carved curlicues and faded the fabric roses. The oldest girl climbs on the tallest, most intricate chair, twice as high as the others and with a mirrored back, and becomes a Queen. Two younger girls arrange themselves on smaller chairs and transform into Princesses. The magnificent Irish Setter clambers on the sandy cushions of a large flowered and, like everything else in the house, sandy ottoman. He is sometimes a Dragon, sometimes a Royal Hunting Dog, and sometimes a Frog Prince that one of the Princesses kisses and marries. All four look regal.

The other children decide that they would much rather play real games and take a well-used deck of cards from a drawer in the centenary china cupboard. They sit down on the benches around the long table and begin a game of War. Soon, brave numbers begin falling under the swords of mighty Kings and Aces.

Outside, the sky slowly darkens and the songs of the cicadas subtly change. Noises can be heard from the kitchen. The children are called upon to take stacks of plates to the tables on the terrace. The rumble of a car is heard outside the walls of the garden, and the husband-father-grandfather-great uncle walks through the gate, followed by an aunt and two uncles. Today had been a good day for sailing, they traveled all the way to the edge of the open Ocean, where the waves began and the tall sand dunes and pine forests faded from view.

Dinner is freshly-caught salmon, steamed potatoes, and homemade mayonnaise. The sky becomes dark red, then purple, then black. The sea breeze waves between the tall white arches, fluffing hair and rumpling napkins.

The uncles and husband-father-grandfather-great uncle are sitting on the steps outside, talking about something the children cannot understand. A little girl, the brown, curly-haired one, approaches.

-Papa, I want to go fly a kite and go swimming.
-It's late, ma fille.
-But I've never been swimming in the dark!

The night is warm, and it is the summer holidays, so the father says yes. They gather swimsuits and towels and kite and walk down the hill and through the forest path to the beach. The sun is no longer shining and the water has cooled down. The little girl does not swim long. Soon, she shivers. Her father wraps her in a towel and begins to unwind the kite strings. The girl observes him. The wind picks up, and soon they are both running across the beach, pulling the stubborn kite into the air, stumbling, laughing. But the child's leg tire fast. They go home.

The child climbs up the creaky stairs and slides into bed next to her blonde and curly baby sister. The adults are still talking downstairs. Soon she is asleep.

The next morning, the children wake up one by one and cavalcade downstairs. The ancient clay tiles in the kitchen resonate with the sound of bare feet. An aunt is feeding her baby oustide on the steps of the kitchen door. One of the children has found a bottle of bubble-soap and is blowing bubbles everywhere. Some land in the baby's bowl and the aunt chases the children away.

They slink behind the clothesline, sweep the hallowed spot hopefully for four-leaved clovers and, having found none, continue into the mimosa forest. Two of the girls set up shop on the bent tree, the little boy pretends to imprison one of the older girls between the branches of the cage tree, while the two youngest girls try to climb on the back of the dog, who, in comparison to them, is a very tall horse. Eventually, the oldest child leads her troops into the secret passageway by the fence, where they unearth the remains of a plastic soldier army buried years ago by the earlier generation of children.

After lunch on the old, rickety table behind the kitchen, the women round up the children and walk down to the beach. It is too windy to swim and the orange flag is waving in the wind. The children make their way to the beached wreck of a fishing boat, the wreck that for many years has been claimed as a fort by every child to lay eyes on it.

Time passes. The group walks along the beach to the stone pier, where they take turns sitting on the old rusted cannon fiercely guarding a pot of petunias. The youngest look wistfully towards the brightly painted carousel nearby. As if by magic, a handful of cardboard tokens appear. There is one for each child and some left over. The house keeps a plentiful supply of the precious rectangles since the carousel was first installed, years ago.

The wooden horses spin and gallop to the music, tossing their golden manes and mirrored reins in the wind. The swans glide majestically, the carriages roll along, the donkeys look mischievous.

When the music stops, the children neatly climb down. They know what happens next.

«Passion-framboise, cornet maison, s'il vous plaît monsieur.»
«Griotte pour moi, s'il vous plaît.»
«Chocolat!»
«Moi aussi!»
«J'essaierais bien la crème de marrons et la nougatine...»

Nine children and four women sit down on the same green wooden bench as always, contentedly licking various flavors of ice cream and sorbet. As age decreases, the mess increases. The youngest children soon become hugely smiling chocolate monsters. The mothers sigh and decide it is time to go home.

In the shower room, everyone squirts water at her neighbor. Sandy toes leave tracks behind. When all are clean and freshly dressed in nightclothes, dinner is called and they head to the long table, picking up grains of sand between their toes as they walk in the hallway.

It is the end of yet another day in Iruskia.

The house of the sun.

***

The house belonged to my great-grandmother, although she didn't live there anymore. Three generations of children of our family have been through here, and all of them have left their mark.

When Mémé died, the family had to sell the house. A rich couple bought it and had it refurbished to their taste. The white stucco walls have been covered in tiles, the sandy soil paved and transformed into a driveway, trees cut down to make place for a pool, clothesline and clovers engulfed under a garage, and the wooden gate replaced with an automated metal grille.

Iruskia has no more sand and no more children. I have not been there since it has been sold, and never will go back. I will keep it alive in my memory as it once was, a house where time stood still and children played the same games, year after year, generation after generation.

Thursday, February 5, 2009

Watch out!

Admittedly something of a cop-out, but a funny one nonetheless. I found this on C. Beth Blog.



Oh yes, I love my city.

Wednesday, February 4, 2009

Planet Earth

In Science Seminar today, the professor asked us to give one thing that we could change about the world if we could.

After some thought, I decided on drastic measures: eliminate humans.

I think this not only because I believe that, despite the many wonderful and altruistic attempts being made by many, mankind will never fully live in peace, but also because it does not belong.

Think: we are the only beings capable of reason. Some might argue that dolphins, chimpanzees, mice, and other animals are capable of sentience. But this is not what I mean. Have you ever discussed philosophy with a cetacean? Compared economics with a great ape? Debated politics with rodents?

Living organisms everywhere on the planet have some sort of protection mechanism. Plants sting and poison, animals run and fly, have claws and fangs, shells and hair a scales.

What do we humans have? Bare skin, weak eyes, a lousy sense of smell. What we have is the ability to use tools. Constantly, we devise new ways to deal with what faces us. We create new tools, develop a new compound, build new factories.

And in doing so, we blatantly disregard those we share the planet with.

Every single living being interacts directly with the others that surround it, living and dying on a daily basis.

Not us.

We're separated from the rest of the living world by the way we live. We are the only land animals next to an ocean of fish. We can prey upon them, they are helpless.

One might argue that humans' brains are our share of the evolutionary pool. But it's so different from anything else, so alien, that we cannot coexist with the rest of the living world.

I may sound cliché and Jurassic Park-ish, but life finds a way. If humans were removed, nature would soon take over and go back to equilibrium.

Tchernobyl survived. The Earth can manage without us and right the wrongs we have done it.

Tuesday, February 3, 2009

Quirks

When a car driving by pumps loud, obnoxious rap out of its windows, with the bass high enough to make my molars rattle, I turn up the Mozart and keep walking.

Whenever I talk to someone on the phone, I have to walk around in geometric shapes. If I'm at home, I walk along the edge of the big rug in the living room. If the floor has patterns, I walk along them. It doesn't matter who calls, I can't stand still.

I can't harm a book. That includes writing, folding pages, highlighting, and breaking the spine. Having to do so makes me cringe and produces almost physical pain. Books are sacred.

***

Those are my three random facts for the day. I was almost run over by one of those loud cars, had to annotate my German play, and walked on every other brick in the diagonal across the old plaza while talking to my mother.

Monday, February 2, 2009

Teachers

I walked home from the grocery store instead of taking the bus and I stopped by my old elementary school on the way.

School was already out, but the doors were still open for after-school activities, so I went in the office to ask someone if my teachers still worked here. No one was at the desk, so I looked around and found the board with all the pictures of the staff. Most of the teachers I knew from my time at the school were still here, as well as the janitor with the really long beard who said hello to me every morning. Both of my teachers married since then and have different names, but they look just the same.

I'm thinking of visiting them some day before they leave and bring them flowers.

They taught me both English and some of the strange ways of Americans.

I remember my first fumbles with the language (I can please go to bathroom?), my befuddlement at unfamiliar mathematical notations (Why is there Morse code in this equation? [it was a multiplication sign like this (•), not like this (x) as I expected]), my complete and utter incomprehension of even the most simple of directions (What does "HW" signify, and why do we have to write it in our planners?), and their surprise when I earned one of the few perfect scores on the first spelling test of the year and the confusion that ensued (Students could either complete a set of exercises or attempt to earn a perfect score on the spelling test each week to earn their way out of them. Mom was upset when she saw everyone but me hard at work on their worksheets and thought I had forgotten to take one. I of course had no idea what was going on).

They helped me through all of this, hour after extra hour spent after class, cheerfully and without complaining (or if they did, I didn't understand a word of it).

I am thankful for them both.

Taking a breath

I suspect that I may be going through some sort of mild depression at the moment. Maybe the full workload just hit me in the face and I realized that I might actually have to study this semester. Maybe it's the weather. Maybe I'm sick and caught whatever bug is going around campus. Maybe it's the season.

Whatever the reason, I haven't been this apathetic, exhausted, and hopeless in several years.

I don't know what's happening. I had a great day yesterday. I spent five hours with Geeky Science Organization officers making leis and Hawaiian decorations for the research forum we are hosting later this week. I am now officially the non-officer member with the highest number of volunteering hours in the Organization (I don't actually care about counting hours or filling quotas, I just like hanging out with them and being helpful and doing science-type things).

I even had the (relative) pleasure of finding my roommate not watching an idiotic TV show but instead a PBS documentary on the life and death of Marie-Antoinette.

After that, though, I had the greatest trouble going to sleep and woke up this morning much earlier than I would have liked. I was in such an execrable mood this afternoon that I had to seriously refrain myself from growling in annoyance at the number of Premeds (everyone but me, I am the only one who plans on actually doing research, ironically) in my 30-odd student research class when the professor made us introduce ourselves today. I could probably go on a rant about how much I despise Premed students (a lot), but that would be a waste of my time.

So instead I am going to listen to some Schubert, take the bus, and go grocery-shopping. If I'm lucky, there will be some unfortunate Premeds on the bus for me to glare menacingly at. That ought to calm my nerves a bit.